Welcome to our weekly look at the Torah Portion of the week. We are in Genesis and the portion is called Vayera (Gen. 18:1 - 22:24). The word "Vayera" means "and he appeared"in Hebrew. Each Torah Portion has a name usually taken from the first few words in the "parsha" or portion. In this case, "Hashem (G-d) appeared to him (Abraham) on the plains..."
Then comes the well known story of Abraham seeing three men coming to his tent. In reality they were three angels. Abraham interrupts his conversation with G-d (can you imagine?) to make welcome the three strangers. A couple of things are going on. Three days earlier Abraham, at his advanced age, circumcises himself in a forever sign between the Jews and G-d. Three days...and now he is playing host to three strangers.
One of the angels then informs Abraham that his wife, Sarah, will have a child in a years time. When Sarah learns of this it is said that she "laughed". But the key is that she laughed "inwardly".
And it gets more interesting:
G-d then said to Abraham, "Why did Sarah laugh? Is there anything that is beyond God?" Abraham reprimanded Sarah, but "Sarah denied, saying 'I did not laugh' for she was frightened." Abraham then said to her, "No, you laughed indeed" (Gen. 18:12-14).
Have we caught Sarah in a lie?
The Rabbi of Gur says that it is impossible to think that Sarah lied. The Midrash tells us that Sarah was totally free of sin (Bereishis Rabbah 58:1). He, therefore, interprets the verse as saying not that Sarah denied, but that Sarah was in denial.
Her disbelief that she could carry a child was "inward" -- deep in the recesses of her subconscious. Sarah was not even aware of this thought. Only G-d Who knows a person's innermost thoughts and feelings, was aware of it. When Abraham reprimanded her for this thought, Sarah could not even imagine that she could have harbored disbelief of G-d's omnipotence. Her reverence of G-d was so great that a thought such as this was beyond her.
The lesson here is that even if we are unaware of denial we can protect ourselves from being blind to reality. How? By listening to teachers and sincere friends who are objective and can see that which we cannot see.
May you have a blessed Shabbat!